peaches and cream

2002-04-09T14:33:00.000-04:00

hey lover,
yeppp thats right im sneakin on here again.. hehehe just to give you smmoooches like madddd.. tell you how much im chraysie about you hehehe.. oooooooooOOOOoooOOooooOOOOOOOOooooOOhHHhhHHH babe! heheh i had a wonderful time with you this weekend babe... i cant wait to see you again...we gotta go to the park sometime and feed the ducks again or go to our picnic spot.. its getting pretty nice out... maybe pollen filled but definately nice.. ;) i love you honey ill talk to you soon.. smmooooches and hugs and all my loveee... love always yours truly chrisnitttyyyy nitttt

2002-04-01T22:38:00.000-05:00

dearest darlingest super babe,
smiles..heyyyy babeeee.. muah muah muah muah muah muah heheh *takes breath* smiles....im soooo happy with you babeee we really have such a wonderful thing daysie.. im so happy..it brings tears to my eyes sometimes... sorta like now... just thinking about how special and how dearly i care for you...your the bestest babe... the very very bestest... i love you with all my heart..i must be the luckiest person in the world to have you.. :) love always yours truly chrisnit

2002-02-07T11:40:00.000-05:00

lol well hunnie i guess Y OU are the one that doesn't look on here. have you given up on me?? lol just kidding. so i was thinking I LOVE YOU! i hope you are having a beautiful day and i can't wait to see you!

~daysie

2001-12-21T22:03:00.000-05:00

oh babe i still look in here. often times, i am at a loss of words after reading what you write to me that i am just soo sooo soooo sooOOooOooOoOOoOooo full af happiness that i don't know what to say. I am the luckiestestest girl in the world to have you as my lover, friend, and companion. I can't even begin to say how I feel for you. "I love you" just doesn't cut it anymore. It's so much deeper than that. You are my whole world and you have my heart. I love you Chris and talk to you soon

Love forever and ever,
your little daysie bird.

2001-12-05T12:57:00.000-05:00

hey beam... i guess you never check this anymore or write in it... its okay.. i think it might just turn into a little daysie shrine. hehehhehe.. i love you so much babe... you are the bestest in the entire world... im feeling really lonely right now.. i wish i could talk to you or something.. i didnt get enough sleep and im sooooo tired.. i guess i just feel pretty dumpy.. not so much grumpy but just dumpy.... so anyways if you read this will you say.. hey chrisnit i read peaches and cream.. and itll prolly make me smile realllllyyy big.. no matter if it is a day after this or a yearrrr after this... ill just be happy to know ya read it :) ..... i dunno if you even saw the last post.. it was a poem i wrote for you :) man it was wayyyyyy back in october... sheeshhhh.. looks like i needa stop in here more :) woot woot.... alright honey.. i love you sooooo much hope you have a wonderful day.. love always yours truely chrisnit

2001-10-22T03:38:00.000-04:00

dearest lover,
every moment i see you is a moment of wonder... i cant believe i have found such a wonderful person.. you are the most caring and genuine person i have ever met...i love you with my entire heart and it is yours...you mean the world to me daysie... and if it takes a lifetime to show you how much i love you and care for you.. then thats a lifetime i will gladly spend with you...i love you always daysie.... love always yours truely chrisnit

2001-10-10T12:37:00.000-04:00

hey loveeeeeeerrrrr just stopped in to tell you how truely happy i am with you and how i love you with all of my heart.. MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU i hope you had a good and safe drive home lover... ill talk to you tonight :) mUAHZ MUAHZ! all my kisses and love...truely your chrisnit

2001-10-02T12:41:00.000-04:00

awww beam.. i came on here.. and then i see the sweetest post from you :) awww.. thank you beammm.. your the bestest... i really miss you.. i cant wait to see you.. its gunna be so soon i know.. but still.. these 3 days seem like a long timmmmee.. heheh.. i never got to romance you this past weekend.. so looks like i get a chance to this weekend :) WOOT WOOT..heheheh..

im so happy to have found such a wonderful person to be with... you are my world daysie and i love you with all my heart.. i couldnt be any happier with you my love... SMOOCHES yours truely and love always your chrisnit :)

2001-09-25T15:25:00.000-04:00

oh beano weeno heno meano beano

::seranades babe::

I saw the sign... and it opened up my eyes I saw the sign... life is demanding without understanding...

yeah babe? that's oldschool? yeah I know! hehe well I am in the computer lab and just wanted to send ya a dozen roses since I can't send ya the real thing. so here ya go!!

@-->>--- @-->>--- @-->>--- @-->>--- @-->>--- @-->>---
@-->>--- @-->>--- @-->>--- @-->>--- @-->>--- @-->>---

babe? every rose is worth a million kisses for ya so ya better get a move on and collect them all!! <3

I love you soooo sooooo sooooooooooo much and can't wait to be with ya on thursday. Bye beaner I love you!!!!!!!!!

**KISS KISS GUSHY GUSH** *MUAH*

~daysie daysie the chikin chikin bird

2001-09-03T16:22:00.000-04:00

2001-08-28T23:16:00.000-04:00

aaaaaawwwww beaaaammmm.... man im tired.. i should go to bed early tonight i think.. get a gooooooddd nights sleep.. :) ... man beam i miss you something aweful right now... id give anything to lay my little head against your chest and snugggggllleee awww.. snuggly snuggly snnnnuuuggglllyyyyyyyyy... :) ohtee ill get outta here.. i just came on to be silly and cute. hehee muahhzzz love you always love your little chrisnitttt beary bear... XOXOXOOXOXOOXOOXXXXXXXXXX

2001-08-27T23:00:00.000-04:00

heeeeeeyy lovvvvvvverrr...muah muah muahhhhhh im talking to you right now hahahaha.. but i started thinking about peaches and cream.. and decided id write up in this bad bbbooyyyyy.. hehe.. babe im soo excited about this weekend.. its gunna rock.. and also its gunna be soo awesome to have you in my arms again... i love you soo much babe.. you truely are a part of me... and i love ITTTT!!!!!!! your my little super hero heheeh.... well ill get back to talking to you heehehe.. just haaddda let you know i was thinking about you and smiling superrr big.. MUAH MUAH MUAHH LOVE ALWAYS AND TRUELY YOURSSSSS CHRISSSSNITTTTTTTTT!

2001-08-21T23:22:00.000-04:00

hehehe sooo cuteee.. even cuter when your sleepin and you do it!... hehe I LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOUUU TOO!.. hehehheheh its so nice to be with you babe... i cant wait to see youuuuu.. and talking to you everyday is sooo wonderful too.. :) makes me soo happy... before you know it we will be in each others arms again :) :) :) :)

babe.. i dunno what carroways is??? some restaurant? im down for whatever.. itll be cool to see your dad again... i liked him the first time i met him :).. .should be lots of fun hanging out in NC too :) hehehe

alright babe well i better get back to my workin.. gotta find good pictures :) love you always with all my little heart your the super number onest! and SMOOOCHIIIEEE SMMOOCHES love always your chrisnit

2001-08-21T20:14:00.000-04:00

hey babe? I have something to ask you...

1?

hahahahahahahaha I love you soooo much. like we were talking about the other day... I am so excited to be with you and to be with you in the future. you are so awesome. ya know babe? well I can't wait to see you next weekend! I told my dad that you were coming up when he is here and he was happy to hear that. I was thinking, maybe we could all go to carrowinds that saturday? I think it would be a blast! I love you I love you I love you!! *MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH*!! yummmmmmm I just wanna cover you in kisses babe! yus yus! bye babe! love you sooo sooooo much!

~daysie birdy bird

2001-08-19T01:00:00.000-04:00

my biiiirrrddd my bird my biiirrddd.. heheheh man babe i miss you sooooo much... heheh i keep thinking about how nice it is to lay next to you while you fall asleep... putting your little 1 in my face.. hehehe.. awww.. MUAHHZZ..heheheh i love it love it loveeee itt... but seriously i had such a wonderful time with you... sooo perfecttt... i love how we interact.. i guess thats a weird way of putting it but.. its sooo special and wonderful.. sooooo PERFECT! hehehe..smilesss.. i just took a really deep breath hehehe...awwww babe :) okee well mike just came in here sooo i gotta go... ill write more later.. muah muah muah love you soooo muchhhh muah muah muahhhhhhhh love your little chrisniiiittttttt :) :) :) :) :) :) PEACHES & CREAM

2001-08-13T13:38:00.000-04:00

::sings::

I got nothin but love for ya baby

~what chu got?

I got nothing but love for you baby!

you are so perfect and sweet and sexy and loving and considerate and you are such a gentleman and you make me want to cry you make me so happy and I miss you so much when you aren't here (even though you SHOULD be) and babe, I just love you so so SOOOOO much! I can't wait until you get here. tomorrow! woo hoo! I am going to give you the biggest most bestest hugs and kisses and butt grabs and chipmunk kisses and everything! I have to stop by the store and get some chips so my chrissy can snack when he is here 'coz I know he's gonna be so so hungry when he gets here. my mom said she would make something yummy for us too :0D !!

I can't wait to see you babababababababababababababay!! I love you so much! *MUAH*!! bye lover!

~daysie

2001-08-08T19:14:00.000-04:00

alright im just gunna start this out by saying... mannnn i miss my daysieeee... i sorta knew this would happen.. weve been together for like a week or so... and now that im alone i feel like half of me is missing... its weird.. i mean im not like crying sad.. but i just feel like daysie should be sitting right next to me.. i hope she is okay driving back to greensboro..weve been driving soooo much.. its weird to think about her driving even more.....

i cant even begin to explain how much i honestly and truely care for daysie.. this trip was soooo wonderful...i feel so much closer to her and feel such a strong bond...sooo comfortable and trusting and justttt ... ohh man.. i dunno what else to say.. im just sooo happy with what we have already.. and i know it will just get better..daysie i love you!... big smiles..i dont really wanna recap all my favorite things on the trip cause seriously i could just go on and on.. it was just something special.. something truely special...large part of that being.. how special daysie is and how much i adore her... smiles.....okee before i start crying tears of joy.. im gunna get outta here... i love you sweetie.. smooches and hugs.. and love always your lil chrisnit

2001-07-24T13:46:00.000-04:00

I LOVE MY BABYYYYY I LOVE HERRR SOOO MUCHHHH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH SMOOCHEEEEESSS KISSESSS MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAHHHHH I LOVE YOU HEEHHEHE WINK WINK NUDGE NUDGE BURT? NOOO HEHHEHE NO BURTS HAHHAHA MUAH MUAHHHH HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY BABE YOUR THE BESTEST... LOVE ALWAYS YOUR LITTLE CHRISNIT

2001-07-24T03:21:00.000-04:00

mmmmmyyy babyyyy... man i misssss youuuu.. i dunno where you are really.. i know your outtt having funn hehehe.. like a good little daysie bird shoullddd. hehe.. anyways just sitting here in my undies lookin all cute... wishing you were heree giving me smooches on my neck hehehe..listening to sarina paris tooo hehehe im gunna see you soo soonnn.. smiles.. i just hope all that credit card shit will work and ill get the ticket tomorrow.. woot wooot.. alright well im gunna go to bed.. im getting reallllyy tired.. and im suuuuupper boreddd without you here to talk to mee.. hehehe.. smiles.. have a wonderful night babe.. im thinking about you.. muah muah muah muahhh love you always your little chrisnit

MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH

2001-07-19T13:36:00.000-04:00

okkeee.. this is a "i miss my daysie bird" postttt.. I MMMMMMMMMMMMMMIIIISSS MYYY DAYSIEEEE BIRRRDDDDD.. i feel incomplete.. i feel like im not all here... i guess over the past couple days daysie has just become such a part of me...i knew it would happen.. no doubt... but i guess as i sit here typing this i feel like i should be with her... i miss her sooo much...in a way its a good thing though.. as weird as it sounds.. me sitting here thinking of her and missing her... just shows me how much i truely care about her... and how much i truely love her...smiles... its soo nice to have this feeling of love and security with my daysie.... makes me soo happy... its funny how i sit here and miss her and then it turns all around and im smiling again.. hehe just like i am now..the letters "d a y s i e" make me smile :) :) hehhe.. okee.. well babe if your reading this... know im thinking about you.. and cant wait till i see you again... it wont be that long... i missing youuuuu and i love you more than anythingg!! SMMMMOOOCHESS AND ALLL MYYY LITTLE KISSESSSSS AND BIG HUGSSSSSSSS love always your number one fan, your kwalla walla chrisnit

2001-07-10T12:55:00.000-04:00

me and chris and chris and me
no matter how they toss the dice
it's plain to see
so happy togeatherrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

I love a love ya a lot!

2001-07-10T01:04:00.000-04:00

babyy babbbyyy... only like 3 days left.. woot woot.. then i get to see you and squeeezeee you and smooochhhh youuuu and hooold you.. aww i cant wait... im soo happy baby...hehee.. i know your sleepin right now.. im just thinking about you.. i really wish i had gotten on here before you went to bed.. just to say night night..ill just have to give you extra smooches tomorrow.. hehe.. definately! its a musssttt! okay my little daysie bird... im gunna go to bed.. im sooo tired... something thats GOOD FOR CHRISNITSSS... sleepy sleeppppyy... muah muah muah muah i love you baby... smooches and the biggest hugs ever love your koala walla chrisnit

2001-07-07T11:44:00.000-04:00

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU HEY BABY GUESS WHAT.... hehehe I LOVE YOU... WINK WINK MUAHHZZ!!! LOVE YOUR LITTLE FUZZY SILLY WILLY CUTE LOVABLE SNUGGLY LITTLE KOALA BEAR CHRISNIT

2001-07-07T05:31:00.000-04:00

SUPER CHRISNITTTTT... heheh.. IM A HAPPY CHRISNIT YES A HAPPY HAPPPPPY HAPPPPPPPPPYYY CHRISNIT I GET TO SEE DAYSIE TOMORRROOOOOWWW WOOOO HOOO!+#)!#)@+#_!@!#)!*%(!@*)#(!@&%_(!*@^%!@)(#*!_@#_!(#_(!@ im soo happy.. i dont know if i can sleep im so happy hehhe.. im gunna try though.. i hope she had fun at the club last nightt... im sure it was rockkkkkin! heheh... awwwwww im like gunna cry.. im sooo happy... my sweet daysieee.. baby babbyyy i missed you sooo much... and finally i get to hold you in my arms... YESS!+@#_)!@#_!)@_+#!@.. wooo hoo.. alright well im gunna go to bed now.. and dream of my baby... sweet smooches i love you alwayyyyss.. love your little chrissssy chriiiiisssnit.. hehehe MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAHHHHHHHHH

2001-07-06T10:59:00.000-04:00

the waaiiiittt is over... i get to see my babyyyy tomorrrowwww!!!!!!@)#(@! _($ !*%@&$!@()*&#!)@(*^#!@)(*#^!)@(*# hell the FUCKKKK YAAAAAA!!!! im sooo excited.. hehe i know its only for like 30 minutes but still.. immm sooo happyyy.. i cant wait to see my baby babyy... MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAHHHHHHH man it just seemed like forever now that i look back at how long its been.. hehe..... baby babbbbbyy im gunna smooch you and hug you and never let you gooooo YES I AMMMM YEEESS I AM! heheheh.. im soooo silly.. anyways.. mUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH alright i just wanted to come on here and post that.. hehehe im soo happy im jumpin up and downnnnn muah muah muahhhh muah muahhhh i love you babyyyy... muah muah muahhhh love always your little chrisniiiittttttt rockinnnn daysieees sooockkss!

2001-07-02T07:19:00.000-04:00

little chrisnits up late at night again.... man babe i miss you something awwweeeefulll.. im listening to BT - SATELLITE... just thinking about youuuu soo much..... i cant wait to touch your skin.. feel your cheek against mine... aww.. i get chills just thinking about it..give you the biggestttt hugs and sweetest smoochess... hehe.. MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAHHHH... thanks for your email it was soooo niceee.. i loveeedd itttttttt.. its just soo nice to get anyyy little message from you hehehe..alright well i took some sleepy pills.. so im getting tired...I LOVE YOU SOME MORE BABE...MUAH MUAH MUAH love always your little chrisnit

2001-06-30T20:16:00.000-04:00

dayyyy one without my daysie... SNIFFLEEESSSSS..... hehehhehee i do miss my little lovey bunny... of course i know shes okay and having fun...just wish i was there i guess... im super duper boreddddd and my tummy hurts... grrrr... i need some tummy medicine or for my baby to rub my tummy.. hehehe that sounds like a better idea... woot woot..DREW IS BEING SUCH A JEW>. hahaha... he just called me... silly ass..... hes still grounded hahaha... he is pretty good at getting grounded..lacks alot of common sense there CAPTAIN!.. haha..well im supposed to go to my sisters little birthday party, HOLLY's birthday that is... she is 25.. sooo crazy...i guess i should go... im gunna come back tonight and write more... i guess ill sorta just talk on here like i would be talking to daysie.. smiles... i love you baby... I LOVE YOU WITH ALLLL MYYY LITTLE HEARTTT.. hehe... i miss you already.. and im thinking about you every second.... MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH love your little chrisnit

2001-06-27T06:43:00.000-04:00

mannnn oh mann.. i miss my daysieeee... not in a neglected wayyyy. i just miss her.. smiles... i miss hearing her voice.. hehe and hearing her laugh and know shes smiling reeaaalllyyy big... hehee.. awwww.. smiles... she is the bestest.. and i love herrrr more than she will ever knowwww...i cant wait till i can just snuggle up in her arms.. and give her sweet smoochessssssss and hugs wheneeeverr i want.. hehe.. its gunna rrrooockkkK!!! wooooo hoooooo...

ive been thinking alot lately about how awesome its gunna be in the winter to be with daysie... like there is nothinnnggg more comforting to be with someone you love in the fall or winter... sooo cold outside but you keep each other warm and fuzzy....or even in bed when its cold out.. like when you wake up really early in the morning.... and the sheets are all warm.. hehe my little daysie will be all snuggled next to me.. hehehe hellllyyyyaa i cant wait.. hehehe...

ohhh daysie... CHANNEL 39... smiles... I MISS YOU BABY DOLL... SMOOCHIIESS AND THE WARMEST HUGS EVERRRRRRRRR I LOVE YOU MY DARLING>>> MUAH MUAH MUAHHHHHHHHHHHH love always your little chrisnit

2001-06-26T05:15:00.000-04:00

smiles.. well im about to go to bed...but i thought id sneak on here for a sec.. and tell you how much i love you sweet daysieeee... MUAH MUAH MUAHHHH my heart is sooo big right now.. ive been thinking about you sooo much tonight..i tried to give you a call and say night night but i think your out having fun... i hope you feel better about things.. i know its really rough on you right now.. with your dad and everyone starting shit.. i just cant wait till i get to you see you..and hold you in my arms... smiles.. for some reason i think at the airport we are just gunna be in each others arms for that entire hour you have a lay over for hehehe....which is COMPLETELY FINE WITH MEEEE... BIIIGGGG SMILESSS>. hehehe.. damn im silly.. i wish you were online right now hehehe... im sure we would be NUUUH UHHING AND YUUU HUHHHINGGGG HEHEHE.. i watched the SECRET OF NIMH tonight...thats one me and you gotta watch.. its not as funny as others but its got history.. last time i saw it was when i was eight.. or maybe even younger... i remember getting all scared about the rats.. hehehe.. guess im just silly hehehe...anyways baby baby... i miss you and I LOVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE YOUUUUU!!!!!!! your the bestest.. and im thanking the powers of the universe that i am blessed with you...smiles.. you are my love... MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAHHHHHHHHHH sweet dreams baby... love always your little koala bear chrisnit

2001-06-24T17:53:00.000-04:00

okay.. forget about allll the other dreamssssssss.. cause i just had the besstttt onee yet... it wasnt really physical at all.. but sooo detailed and complete ohhh goodneesss... alright well here it goes... it was simply this.. and image of sweet daysie... but the thing is i can tell you every little thing about her...we were at the party that i went to last night.. it was in this huge ass warehouse..richard humpty vission was playing.. and i was in the front dancing...or at least trying to hehehhee..i guess i was lookin all cute... and as i was dancing i thought.. hmmm.. i wonder where my sweet daysie ran off tooo... so i turn around... and all of a sudden the crowd begins to spit apart... people move left and right.. and make this little blank spot..on the dance floor.. they keep spreading until i see... this car... in the middle of the dance floor.. it was a yellow hummer...and of course guess who is sitting on the hood...DAYSIEEEEE!!!@#_+)@!#+_@!)#_+@! .. she is wearing these khaki UFOs and a light blue tight shirt she is looookiinnnn soooo fineee.. yummiieee.. she has a tan visor and pig tails out the back... and she just smiles at me.. like shes been watching me for hourssss.. and hourssss... all of a sudden everything disappears.. and my eyes are locked with hers... and its like a japanimation movie or something.. our bodies just slowly slide together.. we arnt walkin.. we just sorta hover to each other.. even though we are still on the ground.... and the first thing that touches are our lips..... our eyes never leave each others.....our arms wrap around each others bodies... and then we both close our eyes and keep kissing... and i wake up... smiles.. yummieeeeeesss.. I LOVE YOU DAYSSSSSIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!! smiles..love always your sweet little chrisnit

2001-06-22T22:18:00.000-04:00

smiless... sittinnngg heree... thinkinggg.. thinkin thinkin thinkin.. hehe im in a cute little mood.. i just called daysie twice.. and left messages heheheh im in such a good moood.. the mere idea of having the chance of talking to her puts a BIGGG SMILE ON MY FACE.. heheh.. i hope she is doing alright... prolly sleepin up a storm.. hehe.. i wish sooooo bad that i was there... it would have been sooo nice to just hold her and watch TV or watch a movie.. me and my little daysiebird... awww... we areeee sooo adorable!!!!! hehhee.. it was soo nice talkin to her today.. hehe even if she couldnt understand me and i couldnt understand her hehhee.. we were both on channel 39 hehe we knew what was going on..hehehe..she truely is my match.. BIG SMILES... soo perfect for little ollll chriiisssyyynit.. hehe.. well im gunna end this... i love you baby i hope you feel better.. MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAHHHHHHHHHHHH love always your chrisnit

2001-06-21T00:49:00.000-04:00

awwwwwww babe... you are so good to me. how did i ever get so lucky to find such a sweet guy?!?

I kinda like the times that i am in town, having fun or whatever, and I think "man this place would be 10x cooler if my crisnit were here."

you are so wonderfull, chris. thank you for coming into my life

2001-06-20T15:57:00.000-04:00

i wrote this prolly 2 weeks ago.. or longer.. smiles... i sent it to myself really late at night and didnt even remember it was there.. heheheh silly me... anyways here it is.. i hope you enjoy it...MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH i love you babbbbyyyyyyy.. .. ..

as the night falls
so do i
soft plushness
pushes against my face
my mind is let go
the wind blows my thoughts away
and i am filled with images of you
more tender than any experience
you slide over my body
absorbing my warmth and compassion
you softly caress it back into me
like the first wave on a morning lake
you take my breath away
as you go deeper into me
slowly carrying me out to the deepest of waters
sweet bliss surrounds my smiling face

i love you daysie

2001-06-19T17:42:00.000-04:00

::sings song like the hairbrush song::

oh where...is my chrisnit

oh where...is my chrisnit

oh where oh where oh wheeeeerrreeeeeeee... IS MY CHRISNIT?

take care... of my chrisnit

take care... of my chrisnit

take care take care take care take care oh wehere oh where take caaaaarreeeee... OF MY CHRISNIT.

I LOOOVE YOU!

2001-06-19T02:27:00.000-04:00

babyyyy babbyyyyy... im sitting here thinking about you.. amazed at how wonderful you are.. and how good you are too me.. makes me forget every bad thing thats ever happened to me... you are soooo wonderful calling me to let me know whats going on or even just to say hi... im soo happy baby... your the bestesttttt.. smiles all i can do is be the bestest little chrisnit i can for you... heheheh MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAHHHHH... hehe im gunna keep this one a little bit short.. muah muah muah muah muah muah i love you babe... sweet soft kisses love awlays your little chrisnit

2001-06-18T01:59:00.000-04:00

chrisndaysie lingo power!!

so my studbucket, hopwfully you were on channel 39 tonite coz I was thinking of giving you peaches and cream in the airport and it made me want to play sooo bad.

I MISS YEW!!!!

I LOVE YEW TOO!! A LOT!!

you are so wonderful...

oh my love... I am so excited to see you... I hope I don't make you fall down in the airport when I JUMP into your arms at full speed. I am gonna cover you with a million kisses and smile while I am doing it and you are gonna look so cute, like my chrisnit and I AM SO EXCITED!!

babe, I hope you are being safe and having fun tonite. I miss you a lot!

*MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH*
*MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH*
*MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* ::chipmunk kisses:: *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH*
*MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* ::peaches & cream::*MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH*
*MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH* *MUAH*
::breath:: iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou::breath::iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou

okay baby... I LOVE YOU!! A LOT!! (if you didn't figure it out already :0D)

talk to ya later! *MUAH*

love always, your daysie

2001-06-16T18:08:00.000-04:00

big smiles... JJJ was pretty cool.. got to the party at like 11.. it wasnt at all as big as i thought it was gunna be... but then again my friend daniel gets a little carried away whenever he talks about JJJ so it sorta figured... i sorta had a feeling this entire trip id be thinking about my daysie..and of course i did.... i miss her soooo much.. i was gone for like a day.. not even really.. and it feels like a long time.. prolly cause of all the driving... i wish my sweet daysie went with mee.. man oh man there were times when i was sitting there with all the lights going buckwild and i could just close my eyes and imagine her sweet form dancing out on the dance floor...*ddeeeepp breathhh* i cant wait to go to a party with her... smiles.. its gunna rockkkkkkk!@#+_!@)#+!_@#)!@+_#!+_@$* anyways the entire trip was alright.. but like i said i just miss my daysie...muah muah muah i love you babyyy... smooches and loves and oodles of hugs and even more hugs and smooches.. love always your little chrisnit

2001-06-15T17:18:00.000-04:00

I LLLLOOOVEEEE YOUUU BABYYYY.. muah muah muah muah muah im just about to go to JJJ... i just wanted to tell you that.. and that YOUR THE BESTEST IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD>... I LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU.. heheheh alright im outta here be safe and know im thinking of you... love always your little chrisnit

2001-06-15T03:03:00.000-04:00

there is so much I could say in here right now... and I know it must get annoying in my other blog to read the words to songs that speak to me.. so I'ma send you on a mini-mission...

download a song called ice cream by sarah mclaughlin... that is how I feel... exactly...

you mean the world to me

I love you.

2001-06-09T17:33:00.000-04:00

mannnnn ohhh mannn... babbbyyy i haddddd the BEEEESSSSSSSSTTTTTTT DREEEEAAAMMMMM ever!...it was another simple one.. but ohhhh myyy gooddddddd i loved it soo much it was sooo perfect.. hehe okay okay im just really excited.. here we go... i was like laying on the floor... (i dont know why).. and you came walkin over to me... you were wearing these black high heels and this like littleeee tiny red mini skirt...and this white baby tee.. that said CHRISNIT in like this red letters... you had red lipstick on... and you came over to me.. and bent down... like squatedd...right in front of me.. i could see up your little skirt and it said PEACHES AND CREAM like right inbetween your legs on your underwear... in pink velvet...and then i look up at you... and you said.. "what are you doing silly. come here" and you took my hands and stood me up... and then you gave me the warmest biggest hug ever... i could feel you breath against my neck.. and smell me....and then you leaned back a little and said "baby i love you"... the end... BIGGGGG SMILLLLESSS!!!! aww it was soo wonderful.. i wanted to call you and tell you..hehehe..anyways honey.. to say im thinking about you.. is an understatement.. hehe.. dreaming about you! hehe..i love you baby... take care.. muah muah muahhhhhh love always your dreamy chrisnit

2001-06-07T08:08:00.000-04:00

hmmmm i dont like waking up in the middle of the night... its no fun... i want my daysie... she could snuggle with me and give me little chipmunks on my face... awww.. i miss her... i cant waitttt till i get to see her at the airport.. ohhhh goodness.. ill be the happiest little chrisnit in the WORRRRLLLDDD!!@#(@!+#)!@#_+) hehhee.. im soo happy with my daysie... i love her sooo much... *turns to channel 39* *ESPN2* *says* "BABBBBYYYY I LOVEEEEE YOUUUUUUU!!!!!!!" hehe.. okay honey well imma try to sleep some more.. i guess i sorta messed my sleepin schedule up.. i took a nap at 11 pm.. hmmm not very smart eh??? heheh.. oh well.. sweet dreams babyy.. im thinking about you.. MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAHHHH love always your little chrisnit

2001-06-06T04:50:00.000-04:00

hehe im sitting here naked as a jadey bird! hehehe.. all cold and nipply.. haha.. listening to andrea botchelli again! hehee.. anyways im just thinking about you... im gunna go watch crouching tiger hidden dragon.. and fall asleep.. smiles.. i wanna watch that movie with you.. itssss soooo awesome.. i likes it alot.. anyways.. i miss you baby.. i hope you had a good night..i was giving you silent smooches.. hehehehe...ill talk to you tomorrowwwwww.. till then my heart is with you... love always your nekid chrisnit

2001-06-05T18:18:00.000-04:00

my dearest love heheheh no doubttt.. we will have fun.. i cant even begin to think of all the experiences i want to share with you..every moment with you is soooo special to me... i love being with you.. i love touching you.. i love everything about you...im getting all excited just writing this... im glad i could be there for you.. all i can do is do my best.. be the best little chrisnit i can for you.. it sounds weird to say that i dont TRY.. i just act the way i do around you cause thats how i am with you.. i dont try to impress you or change the way i act at all... its just our interaction... its an unconditional love i have for you.. your up im up your down im down and want to help you back up... i love you daysie.. and ill be there for you anytime you need me.. anything you need baby... i am yours.... love always your wittle chrisnit

2001-06-05T12:04:00.000-04:00

Chris, thank you so much for beig so wonderful. I had a dream last nite about you that made me love you even more. You are so thoughtful and caring... I feel as if I am the luckiest girl in the world. It is so comforting to know that there actually IS some life on this planet apart from the assholes that I seem to attract. If it were not for you I don't know what state of depression I would be in today.

It is the most wonderful feeling to have my heart flutter when I hear your voice. When you sent me that video yesterday of you hugging the pillow saying 'i love you baby', i must have watched it 15 times wishing I could be that pillow and be lucky enough to be in your arms. I can't wait to give you chipmunk kisses and lay on the couch and fall asleep with you holding me. You mean the entire world to me and after yesterday and how I saw the impact you had on me, I feel closer to you yet. We are going to have so much fun, baby. mark my words.

2001-06-03T20:32:00.000-04:00

i dont know what it is about today...sleepy sunday... i keep lookin outside seeing the mellow light jumping in between the puddles.....so peaceful and beautiful.. the quiet drip of water hitting my window sill...the entire day ive been feeling like i should turn around and see daysie right next to me...smiling at me... and then giving me a kiss on my cheek....sweet little memories of her are constantly dancing in my head......no feelings of sadness.. all sweet thoughts of my love.....

peaches & cream baby....love always your little chrisnit

2001-06-03T04:40:00.000-04:00

just about to go to beeeddd.. im gunna attempt some ESPN2 hehehe and contact my baby... *thinks hard* I LOVE YOU SWEET DAYSIE *breaths deeply* okee i hope that worked.. smiles.. i started another painting..im sooooo excited.. i havent really done art for myself in a while.. i guess just cause i feel like most of my art is just to meet the requirements of certain classes im taking.. but for some reason im all into these little projects.... i guess cause they project my feelings.. i find daysie soo beautiful from inside and out.. that when i paint this picture of her... it just feels sooooo good.. makes me feel soooo happy... and then when i paint the picture of me... i know im thinking about daysie.. sooo im sooo happyyy anyways.. teeeheee... make sense? heheh ..smiles...

i hope you had fun tonight baby.. i was thinking about you sooo much.. giving you soft smoochies... im off to bed... sweet dreams my hot stuff.... i love you.... love always your sweet chrisnit

p.s. A LOT!

2001-06-02T15:02:00.000-04:00

my baby loveeee my babbyyy love... i need you ohhhh how i needdddd your loveee... daahhh daahh dahhh dahhhhhhhh.. hehe okay so i dunno the words.. but im singing it.. hehe.. where oh where is my sweet daysie.. dreamy land?? most likely heheh.. prolly went to the desert party WOOT WOOTTTT.. smiles..well i hope she had funnn.....its hottt and boring over here in the A T L.. i think its time for some art workin!.. man im in a silly mood hehehhe... okee well imma get outta here.... i love you honey baby boo... muuuuahhhhhzzzzz muahhhhzzzz love always yourrrr little adorable and smoochielicious chrisnittt!!!!!!!

2001-06-02T03:45:00.000-04:00

smiles.. well here i am.. 3:33am (kisses the clock for good luck)... i had a borrrrrinnnggggggggggggg night.. im starting to get tired of doing the same ol thing.. the funniest thing is.. i have been gone for the past two weekends.. yet its still the same ol friday...next week im going to do things different... maybe i just wont even go out.. hmm.. theres a thought?? blahhh.. my tummy hurts.. i didnt eat dinner tonight... and then i had a candy bar.. bleehh...that wasnt a good idear... i just ate some steamed broccoli..it was sooooo good.. hopefully that will make my tummy feel better... i really wish daysies mommy cooked the broccoli though... oh my god that wass sooooo good...mmmmm

i thought about my sweet daysie all night... i went to the gas station tonight and drove down peachtree street.. this afternoon i told daysie about how OFF THE HOOK it was... it seriously is crazy... like hundreds of people just cruisin in crazy ass cars... its not really like vegas... the styles of cars are different... more bling bling type stuff here.. haha.. anyways i just thought about that.. and how me and daysie are gunna cruise around.. haha i cant wait till shes here...i know shes gunna love it.... NO DOUBT.. atlanta just has a good vibe i think.....i think she will like parties over here too... as long as we dont go to the parties outside of town... soooo many little kiddoes... oh well...

i guess im sorta rambling... i wish my baby was awake right now.. id kiss her sooo much...im getting all excited just thinking about it.. muah muah muah hehhehe... alright well i hope my baby had a good nighttt and was safe.. good night my loveeeeee.. muah muah muah smoochiesss muah muah muahhhh smoochies.. i love you.... love always your little chrisnit

2001-06-01T04:20:00.000-04:00

my dearest love...i cant even begin to describe what i feel for you...your post describes it all perfectly in such tender words... you are my love you are my friend you are my everything.. not a moment goes by that i dont think about you, what your doing, where you are, if your okay, if your happy...and although we are 2500 miles apart i feel you are as close as ever... it makes me smile.. it makes me happy... no matter where i go i am always with you...

i am falling deeply in love with you daysie.... it is so beautiful....im so happy to find someone i can share my life with and know will always be there for me.....you amaze me everyday with your sweet thoughts and words...i trust you i respect you i feel you i love you...daysie, you have my heart and it is in the best place it can be.. in your hands.

2001-05-31T20:12:00.000-04:00

my sweet, sweet chris... you mean the entire world to me. thank you for listening to me and caring for me. it means more to me than anything just to know that I can count on you not only as my love, but as my friend as well. I think heaven each day for bringing you into my life. I truely believe that you were sent to me for a very specific reason and I see that coming fourth each day. You are going to rock my world and the way I view myself and love. I see that each day when you show me you care even though we are 2,500 miles apart. I love you, Chris. You have my heart in your palm.

2001-05-31T00:47:00.000-04:00

so im sitting here getting all teary eyed...tears of joyyyyy.. complete tears of joy.. i guess i just started thinking about how lucky i am to have such a wonderful person as daysie in my lifeee.. i ammm soo luckkkyy... im amazed.. i honestly didnt think i would ever find someone who matched me.. i know its early to say this.. but everything i have seen from daysie is matched... even our pasts are the same in many ways...i hope im not sounding all silly.. this is just so important to me... my heart is filled with love and warmth.. i love the way it feels.. i love the way she makes me feel...smiles well my tears are going away and now im just really happy and excited....everyday is a better day... mark this as a happy chrisnit! all for my daysie..

this poem underneath my post is sooo beautiful... i loveeeeee it... no one has ever written me poetry.. its always me writing....i love how descriptive it is... i feel all the words.. and its soo sensual and sexy too.. i keep rereading it.... line for line word for word... closing my eyes in between every line... and visualizing it all.... *deep breath* smiless... oh daysie.. you are the best... i love you baby..

well i am really tired.. i just hope that when my head finally hits the bed.. ill actually go to sleep.. i havent had a good nights sleep since daysie fell asleep in my arms..... i need her back maybe?? hehe yes DEFINATELY!... smiles...goodnight my love.. sweet dreams... love always your chrisnit

2001-05-30T21:33:00.000-04:00

As your lips meet mine I quiver with anticipation
I've wanted you for too long
You trace a fiery trail of passion
across my body and beyond
As I arch to meet your questing tongue
my fingers entwine in your hair
and your name slips slowly from my lips
I chant your name like a mantra
begging for release from such exquisite torture
I stroke the muscles of your back
for you are now one with me
I am an ocean in which you willingly drown
When I think you can go no further
you slip deep - then deeper still
My soul fragments into millions of
rainbow colored pieces and I drift slowly....
back....to reality.....where I sit alone
wondering where you are

2001-05-30T13:28:00.000-04:00

>yawn< G'morning. blah. I feel icky today. I woke up like 10 minutes ago to pain on my posterior. hehehehe yeah I did it. i sunburnt my butt in the tanning bed. I decided that I didn't want tan lines any more and went in booty ass nakked and burnt it. Now I have a roast rump...or shall i say rump roast. hehehehe

Last nite I went up to my dad holding a big bottle of aloe vera and said "dad, you love me right?" he looked at me then looked at the bottle then looked at me again and goes "yeah why?"

"I really need you to rub this on my butt."

he laughed. It was soothing though. Can ya blame me?

Chris called yesterday. OMG it made my day 300 times better. I was in a funky mood because of Jordan and things and just hearing Chris' sweet (AND sexy) voice made me go back to my mush-pot self instead of the cranky girl that was pissed. I dun wanna talk about Jordan though. So lets change the subject...

when I was talking to Chris yesterday, he sent me some pics! The very first one made my heart flutter. It was just him looking down with a smile on his face. I thought I'd cry. I gasped when I first got it then started awwwwwwww-ing. Damn I miss him. It just feels like whenever I am sad or am homesick or tired or in pain, he manages to call or IM me or something right at crucial moment. I dunno how he does it. >sigh< I love that kid.

2001-05-30T02:46:00.000-04:00

why are chrisnits up???? i tried to go to bed at like 12..and look at the time.. 2:30 sheesh.. well i took a sleepin pill tonight.. so hopefully ill get at least 3 hours.. then wake up take my dad to work then go sleep some more..... woot woot.

i really miss my daysie.. i keep lookin at my bed and just imagining her curled up with topsy.. lookin alll cuttteee!!.. awwww.. smiles... im getting all silly now hehehe.. i seriously cant stop thinking about her though... hehe not that im complaining... i loveeee her being on my mind all the time..makes it seem like everything i do and everywhere i go.. shes right there with meee..perfect.. oh my god i was in heaven when i got those pics today.. the sequence ohhhhh myyy godd!.. i was about to pass outtt.. started like drooling all over the place and lost all mental functioning heheheh....

daysie is sooo good to me.. no girl has ever been this nice sweet caring sharing.. damn i could just go on forever...its so nice to be treated so well.. i love itttttt...its the best! hehe and daysie is the BESTEST!... (puts hand over daysie's mouth so he can win this once.. )

i showed daysie the painting that i did... hehe i guess i shouldnt have.. but i was sooooo excited.. ive never specifically done any kind of artwork for a specific person.... i mean ive done artwork and just given it to people..but the two paintings im working on are designed for daysie... everytime i work on them all i think of is her sweet smile.. and how happy i am to have her...how lucky i am... i think it shows in my work.... i cant imagine these paintings coming out badly... i have tooooo good and positive of thoughts... big smiles.

alright well im getting sleepy....i wanna give my baby some smooches... MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAHHHHHHHHHHHHH...okay thats just a few.... cant wait till i see her again... its gunna be smoochie madness!!!! hehehe...sweet dreams my love.. im with you always... I LOVEEEEEEEE YOUUUUU MOREEEE (is trying to win again.. heheheh).... love your little chrisnit

2001-05-29T11:15:00.000-04:00

I'm up really early today. i guess it was partly me checking to see if Chris was online and partly the jet lag, but the fact still remains that I am awake. Chris left the sweetest message on his AIM. Made me smile to wake up to such sweetness. I am so lucky to have found someone so nice and respectful of me and who makes me feel SOOOO beautiful. I dunno what it is, but we just click in tall of the right ways. I love it. I love him.

I have to go to the dentist today at eleven. I have 2 cavities I have to get filled... they were hurting me pretty bad while I was in NC so I will be glad to have this all over and done with. This will be my first time ever having to get that numbing shot. I only have 1 other cavity, and that was when I was 9, so I have only had the gas. I think that since I am up so early I am going to meet my dad and my grandma's boyfriend, John, for breakfast. Since my gramma died, my dad and John have met every tuesday and thursday for breakfast at this little joint down the street called Thumpers. SO I might head down there.

I can't stop thinking about Chris. I love his smile and his teeth and his cheekbones and his eyebrows and his arms and legs and stomach and that sexy V thing that only guys have that he has and the way his pant nearly fall off of his ass, but don't and I love his ass and his >ahem< and his lips and his tounge and his hair and the was he makes me feel alive and loved and his eyes and the way he holds me and his fingernails and his feet and the way he moves and the way he treats my mom. I just love him. I wanna kiss him and hold him and love him and adore him and . . . EVERYTHING! hehe okay bye.

2001-05-29T01:29:00.000-04:00

hmmm.. well its like 1:30.. i prolly should go to bed seeing as how i have to get up at 6:30 am tomorrow morrning....or i guess its this morning.....howwww shitty.. oh well.. i get the car for the day...

i had an alright day.. i wish i had gotten to talk to my baby more.. but its all good... i thought about her alllllll day..it was so nice... and of course these two blogger posts are amazing... i love to just think about seeing daysie... just lookin at her face and her smile... and i get little goosebumps when i think of her blushing..hehehehhee...i love her so much.... she is sooo wonderful to me.... *big smiles*.. i know ill talk to her on the phone soon too.. i cant wait.. hehe.. well im gunna go work on my little surprise... hehehe.. SHHHH.. sweet dreams my love... i love you.. muah muah muah muah muah muah love always your little chrisnit

2001-05-28T20:09:00.000-04:00

I'm crying.

I just found 2 of those gummy hamburger things in my bag that chris gave me that i musta packed away.

god I miss him and his blue oceans of eyes.

2001-05-28T19:10:00.000-04:00

>sigh< back home. I cried on the plane 'coz I kept thinking about how awesome it was when I fell asleep in chris' arms and how absolutely perfect it felt. I hate this town I wanna go back to NC. I have some good news too though. I'm not gonn write it here 'coz I have to call chris later and tell him. :0D so anyways, i think my favorite part ablout coming home was getting to see my friend suffering form alcohol poisining. Appaently they all drank themselves into oblivion on saturday nite.So yeah I had to be the mommy like always and take care of him for a few hours. After that i went straight to bed. I hate seeing friends in that state, even if they DID bring it on themselves.

The first thing my dad sid when he saw me today is 'why are your eyes grey??" I told him that I didn't want to be back in Vegas. My eyes hadn't been as green as they were when I was with chris in about a year. The last time I remember the being so green was when I got prom queen. SO now my eyes are grey again. I miss my chris. :(

>sigh< I don't want to be here.

2001-05-28T01:54:00.000-04:00

biggggg smilesssss... so im back from nc.... ohhhhhhh MMMYYYYYYYY.. what a wonderful time i had....it was simply perfect... and i am in aweeee right now... and awwwwwing too... i saw my babyyyyy.. and we finally got our perfect kiss... i wanna write it down cause it will be in my mind forever... we were standing on the boardwalk.. and the light was sorta sparkling off her hair... and we looked at each other... and her green eyes sparkled sooo bright... for like a split second it was frozen... everything.. and then it was slow motion.. our lips touched... it was soooo beautiful.. i cant even imagine a more perfect first kisss.....thats my baby though.. she is just wonderful.. i had so much fun with her tooo.. watchin all the little animals running around hanging out with her mom mandi and cookie.. heheh i think i did a good job of playing it all off..heheh.. i especially liked the little added touches daysie made hahahhaa.. like "LOOK THERE IS A GIANT J IN OUR LAWN!" hahhahaha i was about to lose it a couple times hahahaa.. but seriously.. it was just an awesome time.. felt like i never lefttttt...and laying with daysie was sooo wonderful too.. i love when she just curls up in my arms... and i can give her little soft kisses on her forehead.. and rub her back...hehe she makes the cutest little noises too.. like little COO's teehee.. i guess she learned it from mandi who does the MOO's....alright im just being silly now.. anyways.. it was a really good weekend and me and daysie connected even more... i feel like she is my matching half... its soooo awesome... like ying and yang i guess.. we are just in harmony with each other... perfect compliments.. hehee.. i see it already... and the coolest thing... is that it has just begun.... i cant wait to have more and more experiences with her... ohhh im soo happy..hehe alright.. well ill stop this for now hehehe.. im making a big ass surprise for her right now. hehehe i wish i could say more.... butttt i want her to be surprised.. and love ittttt! heheh soo hush hush... ill write more later... i love you baby....sweet dreams.. love always chrisnit

2001-05-25T13:42:00.000-04:00

im listening to this song daysie sent me last night... piet black and jaspa jones... the little rain drops are soooo nice... reminds me of when we were sittng outside..i know thats why daysie sent it to me... i completely see the same thing....its weird too cause i get this really greeeeennn soft peaceful feel tooo.. sooooo beautiful... heheh oh ya and being outside was nice too *wink wink*... just thinking i guess....... big smiles

2001-05-25T05:35:00.000-04:00

well its late once again..im sitting here all naked.. hehehe yes thats right nakedddd... i think imma sleep naked tonight too... i love it... only problem is that i wake up all hott and horny.. hehehe.. usually have to take care of business.. to bad my baby isnt here hehe.

i cant wait to go up and see daysie again... myyyy ohh myyy... i know its sorta early to say YES.. but i just want to say it.. i cant really imagine me not being able too... and everyone can just kiss my ass if they dont like it.. hahah i wanna see my daysie...i miss her.. its funny too cause its not even been a week......she makes me soo happy.. like right now im just smiling sooo big at the mere thought of seeing her....holding her in my arms.. giving her sweet looks...awwwwww..

ive been day-dreaming about our first kiss...i can imagine it....its soooo realll..but in the same way.. its still my imagination..... i guess i just long for it soooo badly... i know our lips will just fit perfectly.. and it will be sooo passionate...i get all fluttery just thinking about it.. its gunna be the bestestttttt... i really loved kissing her last week.. her skin is sooo soft and sweet... shes like an angel... i can only fantasize of what her lips would feel like pressed against mine... awwwwww deep breath... daysie is sooo dreammyyyy.... hehehe

alright well im gunna go to bed on that wonderful thought...daysie honey.. ill be thinking of you... sweet kisses and all my love... love your little chrisnit

2001-05-24T12:56:00.000-04:00

i just feel like holding you right now, giving you soft kisses.. and looking into your sweet beautiful green eyes... ohhhh sooo dreammyyy.. i miss you baby... so close to my heart... love always your little chrisnit

2001-05-24T12:21:00.000-04:00

i just woke up....its like 12:07 pm i think...waking up to messages from daysie....ohhhh i cant even explain how that feels... its soo wonderful... today's messages meant so much to me..."cherishing what we have"..i feel exactly the same... we have someting so beautiful.. indescribable.....and just when i think i cant begin to feel any better.. she makes me smile again... we just fit... we are both loving and caring people... very compassionate like daysie just said.. and we have the most respect for each other...i love it....this is such a good base to build on... its like a tree... if it has a good base it is sure to grow beautifully...sorry i had to get into a little analogy..hehe.. it just makes me soo happy to have her in my life... and i can only see better things in the future with me and her.
peaches and cream my daysie..... love always chrisnit

2001-05-24T04:13:00.000-04:00

I lub mah chrisnit.

He treats me SO good and cares about what I say. He is such a great person. (and MAD sexy, I might add)!!

My respect and compassion for him runs deeper than words can express. it's like we were meant to meet and share the great memories we do. and for him to trust me enough to trip with me! I feel kinda honored in a way. I think that it is because deep down both of us knew that we would be safe.

mmmm

I wish I could just curl up in his arms and feel his warmth. it is so cold here. but mostly lonely. I can't wait to talk to him in the morning. Mmmmm... I look forward to that for sure.

good nite

2001-05-23T12:57:00.000-04:00

I'm speachless.

This house feels so empty without my Chrisnit in it with me...

oh wait, maybe that's my heart that's empty without him here.

I woke up today early, 12:30 in the afternoon as opposed to 2 or 3pm. I had this weird feeling that Chris was near me. When I woke up, my dog had brought everything he left here and put it on the side of the bed that he slept with me on. It wasn't much...

A green lollypop stick, an empty film box from the film we took pictures with right before he left, a paper jumpy frog thingy, a wrapper from his veggie cheese stuff...

It kinda scared me a little. Well, not scared, it was just an eerie reminder. Strange conincidence or did Mandi miss him as much as I do? I mean, it was ALL right there next to me... next to his pillow.

It was a nice thing to wake up to now that I think about it. Everything in my house Chrisnit left behind, Mandi brought for me. I think that maybe she saw me crying yesterday and was trying to comfort me. I raised her so well. >sigh< well, I'm off to do some house work before I have to go pick up my mom on thursday.

>>>Daysie<<<

2001-05-23T05:31:00.000-04:00

lost in your eyes
i find my heart in your hands
you treat it with such kindness
and look at it with such beauty
i could never take it away from you
it is yours

i only wish i could show you
what you mean to me
what i see in you
and i hope that the sweetness of your soul
reflects in my eyes as you look at me

2001-05-23T05:28:00.000-04:00

i dunno what im doing up so late.. its almost 5 am.... anyways.. i just wanted to get on here and write some stuff... i guess i should start out with my days with daysie... ohhhh i dont even know where on earth to start...i guess i should start with my feelings before i even came up to see her... i knew for some reason that it was going to be such a wondeful trip and that everything was going to go perfect... i got everything together that i needed.. told everyone where i was going and went...the drive was nothing.. i just kept thinking how much fun me and daysie were going to have.... i didnt even know her... yet i felt in my soul that it was perfect.. i got there.. and ohhh myyy.. daysie was everything i had anticipated and more.. she is soo beautiful..she was wearing pink ufo's and a cute little top... soooo sexy.. we hugged.. and i felt like we just connected right then... there was some sort of unspoken connection.. i knew how she felt before she would even say anything... we were both sooo happy to be together....

the first night was wonderful.. i knew i was going to roll but i never thought id trip.. i felt completely comfortable with daysie and knew she would take care of me.... i had thought about what she had said to me before i even got there..."it would change the way you feel about certain things, open your mind, and it was truely an experience.". thats exactly what it was... an experience...nothing like i had ever felt before... it felt for some reason that we connected mentally to each other.. i usually feel sooo out of it.. but during the entire time everything i said she knew exactly what i was talking about.. she never asked what i meant or laughed at how cracked out i was...it was just complete acceptance... thats one thing i really love about daysie... its acceptance... i dont have to impress her.. she doesnt require that i act a certain way... she is just there for me.. and smiling at me no matter what is going on.....i could have and prolly did say some really weird things that night.. but i have no worries about it.... we respect each other and understand each other..

as it got later and later.. things just got better...we had so much fun... we stayed in the bathtub for an hour and a half.. and didnt even know it.. ahhaha.. it was insane..i could have sworn it was only 5 to 10 minutes too... i guess thats one thing that i didnt expect.. "time lapses"....we were outside for an hour and half also... but it seemed like only a matter of minutes.. hahaha.. time flies when your having fun... hehe i think the best part was definately sitting outside with daysie... we were lookin at all the beautiful lightening bugs flashing... and i grabbed her hand.. and started playing with it..... i felt so much love for her just touching her... i guess i felt it when i first connected with her the first time we hugged....im sure that sounds sorta strange.. but it was just there.... and it wasnt a kind of puppy love or anything.. it was something that cant really be explained...an inner love.. thats just felt.... i know daysie felt the same way...i didnt even have to ask her.. i could just feel it by the way she touched me...

we ended up going to bed at 8 am.... what a long night... it was so nice for her to cuddle with me too as we slept... i loved it sooo much...the next day.. we just talked soo much... i havent talked to anyone that way in a longgg time... most of the time i talk to people about unimportant stuff.. but this was soooo impppportant.. it had meaning... but it was in no way forced.. it just happened.. i mean we could have been talkin about unimportant stuff and it would have been awesome too...but the way the conversation went it was just so natural...she asked me questions about my family.. and how i felt about certain things... we agree on so much and are alike in soo many ways..... compatible is the word....there is no way i would ever get sick of her.. or get annoyed with her.. her personality is so beautiful.. i love it so much.. shes happy honest interesting has soo much joy...i can see her being a perfect mother... my god she is like a goddess around her animals... mandi and cookie just love her.. i can only imagine her with real children..... she would be the best mother in the world!... smiles

i guess im sorta carrying on and on about this.. but its something that i want to write down...i know i havent even known her for that long but already she is becoming a part of me and has a part of my heart.... i love her to say the least....i dont feel like i need to explain that at all... she knows how i feel.. she can see it in my eyes... id definately do anything for daysie... i trust her completely and know ill never be disappointed or regretful about it.... im truely blessed for being able to go on this trip and to meet such a wonderful person....thank you... sweet dreams daysie.. im thinking about you always.... love always chrisnit

2001-05-22T20:41:00.000-04:00

Im crazy about you
and i cant live without you
I think about you (everyday & night),
This feeling inside me is,
Oh so right
I love you for a million reasons
its hard for me to explain
but that day i first met you
its never been the same
you are my everything
& everything oh so tight
you make me go crazy
when your not in my sight!

hehe just for you.

2001-05-22T15:00:00.000-04:00

hehehe sorry i changed my name.. haha i dunno i get sorta weirded out when it comes to internet stuff..anyways.. im glad this is working now.. MUUUAHHZZZ MUAHHHZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!! im gunna write so much in here tonight..much love and respect chrisnit

2001-05-22T14:58:00.000-04:00

Okay my funny bunny uhmmm what was your name? gary? right.. my funny bunny gary. this should work now.

2001-05-22T14:38:00.000-04:00

i really hope this thing is working right.. this is just a little spot for me and daysie... big smiles. i just wanna see if this works.. then ill write more... wooot woot... much love and respect chrisnit